I don’t feel like celebrating or being joyous. I wish I could, and will  for the child.  However  I don’t feel like decorating and a tree, or shopping for presents, or baking.  Partially because I won’t get any help really.   I will get everything cleaned, and everything decorated mostly by myself.  I have put husband in charge of shopping for the kid.  I will take care of the family.
I don’t want to bake, because I know that the kid will want to decorate for only a few before he wants off to some other interest – probably electronics.   Then shortly I will have to pack it up all on my own too.    I am to tired already.