I don’t feel like celebrating or being joyous. I wish I could, and will for the child. However I don’t feel like decorating and a tree, or shopping for presents, or baking. Partially because I won’t get any help really. I will get everything cleaned, and everything decorated mostly by myself. I have put husband in charge of shopping for the kid. I will take care of the family.
I don’t want to bake, because I know that the kid will want to decorate for only a few before he wants off to some other interest – probably electronics. Then shortly I will have to pack it up all on my own too. I am to tired already.